I'm jus a nigga that grew up in Jane and finch & Rexdale, whose teachers said had no future. Who cried when in school at 13 cause I couldn't find empathy in the eyes of them. I was in despair at the nightmare that I was living where those tasked to guide me received me like how our immune systems receive a virus. They saw a problem, a threat and no matter what I did they wanted to get rid of me.
If I'm anger it's cause I know too much, I've always know too much. I had an insider perspective on the issues that were effecting us in schools. My parents are both teacher so I knew about the racism inside the school board and I could see the effect it was having on us.
Seeing that opened my eyes to seeing racism in everything. It becomes so painfully obvious everywhere and I've always had to be in the victim position laying down and watching everything play out. Knowing full well that those that inflict the oppression will never be brought to justice.
Now I'm moving into the position of being able to do something about it. Right the wrongs, and expose the truth. And over time I'm understanding that the burden of knowing too much is as much of a curse as it is a privilege and a responsibility.
I'm not an activist. I support and respect folks that do activism. Evenin moments when I disagreed with folks I still greatly appreciate folks that organize and do activism and there are many times I'm thankful and I admire them but that doesn't necessarily mean I aspire to be one.
I wouldn't even choose to be a social justice warrior. But there were moments when I had to speak up because I refused to stay silent and let the world swallow me, my family, and communities I call home whole. I actually can't help it, after doing research I discovered it's literally the way my brain is wired. I have to resist the injustices I experience and keep it real no matter the consequences.
Like Shakespeare said 'Cowards die many times before their deaths.' Those words are true to me. I don't feel like we're truly living if we're not living our full truths. So when I appear to make wild decisions that your sure will negatively effect my future, know that it wasn't a choose for me. I had to do it because it was the honest thing to do.
As I reconnect and get closer to where everything started for me while simultaneously taking steps towards the future and visions I have I hope to stay true to myself: past/present/future; that I'll connect with good spirited people, the right people; that I'll keep learning; that'll attract positively, happiest, and good health; and that my actions will bring more prosperity and abundance into the world.
It going good so far 😝